One of those days.

Yesterday was one of those horribly emotional days, where you learn an ugly truth. On you would rather not face but always have to in the end. For me that truth was that my wonderful boyfriend had been waiting to break up with me since he returned from dunedin a couple of days ago. OUCH! Now do not get me wrong I love him and according to him he loves me though it is difficult to tell at this point in time. I have spent all night crying, to make things harder and worse, We live in the same house and I don't exactly have another place to go to. So this is me trying to cope with or without readers. I love A more then anything or anyone else in the world and have done my very best to be what he needs. However it is very difficult when a lasting injury will not allow me to be as active as I once was and therefore means we cannot do much of what he likes to do. Which does of course make things harder for him and I. I feel very sorry him and would love to do these things with him, but as that will not happen anytime soon (and I would much rather be with him then not) we need to try and work this out in a manner that fixes this for both of us as best as possible.